I guess my time is just a mix of things that I can’t take control of. My thoughts don’t belong to me. My days are like I am drifting on the wind. I don’t know when my wings will stop keeping me afloat. Maybe another time I can do things better. In another time I may find peace and love for all human kind. But, right now, I can only feel the disappear of everything falling apart.
My thoughts might be very catastrophic. How could they not be? When everything I see on TV is set to bring a huge range of negative emotions? Simply by opening my phone, reading the news that come out, so few are good ones. Every one can see it. Feel it. Humanity just got crazier. So much of a better future was promised, a future that never happened or came to be. Religion and Politics promised a better life, just to show us now that they got more corrupt than never.
So many people are religious, but where is all the good they should be practicing? We are just seeing more and more scandalous happening on these spheres of power, from child rape to attacking a politician, that is proving that accomplish campaign promises is possible! We are attacking the only good things that are happening right now. The good thing is more and more people can see it. All the injustices are so in the open, that everyone can see the breaks on our society. The only ones that still defending this old system are the ones that benefit from it and, of course, people that admire those and don’t want to admit they have been wrong.
In a way, I have been waiting for this moment for people start to see what I have been seen my whole life. Change is possible, when we can look inside ourselves and chose a different path, realize that there is not a savior that is going to fix all our problems. We already received the teachings that could make possible paradise on earth, we just have refused to act on it. Power and control is very addictive. The only people that didn’t succumb to it, were killed. History is there to prove it.
Change is scary, we have more people now that are educated and know how to ready. A lot of people committed with the good by the good. They are out there, fighting for everything don’t crash and burn. Change is also painful, being confronted with all the real scary parts of humanity should be, through the pain we can implement a better system, choosing just the parts that really work.
In my hopeless, I still have hope. I will keep being myself and helping others, not because I have to, but because I want to. Even if the ones that I give my help are just taking advantage of me. I will keep building the goodness inside me. Even in the hard days. If we really took the time to know each other, have the real conversations we would see that we are mostly similar than different. If we wanna really live, we need to understand that we need each other to survive and think what are our real needs, so we don’t destroy the only home we possess: Mother Earth.
We need to respect the people that have knowledge and humility within themselves. Someone that shares it and uses it to make life better to everyone. Also we need to seek to know ourselves, to understand our pains, our ego and develop empathy to others, to absorb it and make our social interactions healthier. It will be lots and lots of work, but if we keep focusing on it, I think we will get there in a millennia. At least every new generation will be better than the before it.
